night shifts cause malfunctioned bodies
i'm feeling awkward, all over my body. seems like stickers plastered all over and i'm some sort of mannequin. i do realize i've been awkward my whole life, conversations in and out, cliques here and there, neither here nor there, nowhere, jumping from one point to another. in fact i'm just an awkward girl, i can't pinpoint what is wrong or whether it's a phrase i've yet outgrown. i can imagine magazine interviews titled "Just another awkward girl" and quotes highlighted would be "i'm just working for the money". isn't it my true intentions, isn't it normal for me to work for the money? i do want attention but i also need to find something suitable to work. maybe something to achieve but it all boils down to the money. i can even imagine myself swaying my hips to music, dancing in bars just for the money. but no, i've not done it. blah, all words, no actions. i feel robotic towards most people these days. all just for the sake of entertaining. and no, it would be rude not to reply, no, it would not be Joyce if she doesn't comply, she's just too nice. what has Joyce become of anyway? blah blah blah, whoever said first impressions are the most important, you're right. it's true, you have to stick it to the end or else, you're a hypocrite. am i right, my audience? deep down so you know, i'm (insert demoralizing adjective) to some people. i'm only human.and great, my body clock has malfunctioned and i cant get to sleep, at least not yet. i'm all pent up and i can (only) think of how would it be like living in IKEA, working as an employee in IKEA who secretly lives on their beds. that's a script i want to write, but i'm lazy and the media industry here seems cut throat and political. afterall my industrial attachment results sums up to a grand C+, i might not even make it here. (yea yea whatever)
and i need a boy toy or some chobit to comply to my personality. just so i wont hurt any more people but myself. the chore of 'accidental' misleading and then rejecting is quite hard to take upon. i think i'll just announce i'm bi or les or something revolting (to everyone) to get myself out of such problems. in fact, my subtle crush on skye is so subtle no one believes me. AHAHAHA.
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